It doesn't take an ex-theist to know when illogical, irrational claims are being made.
First off, you don't see his presence unless you're certifiably insane, which I suppose is possible. This is yet another case of a theist making claims which cannot be justified objectively. How can you demonstrate that you receive any blessings? Believers in other religions make similar claims, why are your claims any more justified than theirs? These are questions that need to be answered in any critical evaluation of religious claims, yet they are questions that are just ignored by believers.I can't speak for him, but in my case God is "more real" in the sense I see his presence and receive the blessing of his love daily. So that might be what he meant. You being on the outs wouldn't understand what benefits you receive from God, like air and life, preferring that chance provides, thus only in your imagination minimizing the presence of God.