We have free will to choose whether or not we believe Jesus as being that beacon towards salvation. That is the fundamental element of Christianity, and if what we believe is true, we get in to Heaven. If one doesn't believe, which is clearly in your case, and Christianity turns out to be a true way of living, then you aren't a part of the club my friend.
This is what leads to the reason why I am Christian. The doctrines of Christianity aren't perfect, but in my searchings they seem to be the closest and truest thing to explaining the supernatural. And, if I am right, I have all to gain. If not, well then I am with the athiests in the after life.