[Radarlove]

Maryjane,

I appear to have hit a nerve with you.

"It says right in my profile that the photograph is that of my late husband."

I didn't see this profile comment otherwise I wouldn't have asked. So, my second assumption was correct.

"Why would it matter if it was a homosexual relationship?"

I agree, why would it have mattered? If you are hinting that I may be homophobic, I am not.

"Stop back peddling. I didn't ask for your credentials nor do I care. Your snarky comments on this thread and the other scream attitude."

Are you looking at yourself in a mirror? :o)

"Careful, there you go with the atheist thing again."

Are you suggesting that the word atheist shouldn't be used? Is there another word that you suggest? One which wouldn't make you feel uncomfortable?

"at one point in our "conversation" he smiled at me like he always did when he knew I could handle things."

I sense that a part of you, the spiritual part, wants to accept that the conversations with your deceased husband actually occur and are real. I use the word "accept" and not "believe" as often they are intuitive feelings BUT the cold, clinical intellectual part of you; the part that screams for evidence; the 'don't be so silly' critical woman part of you, who thinks you are being weak and woosy for even considering such nonsense...

Therefore, the conflict between your intuitive more spiritual side - the side that 'knows" rather than "believes" - is being suppressed by the clinical and highly critical 'I need evidence, evidence, evidence' intellectual side.

There is a major difference between 'knowing' and 'believing', in my view. One is emotional, the other intellectual. Feelings are real if you genuinely feel them. The intellect is not. The only thing that is real, in my view, are your feelings and intuition.

Makes me wonder if they find another love is their deceased spouse watching them in the bedroom too?

Interesting point. I have read stories where deceased peeping toms stalk bedrooms but most people are too busy in their next life to even bother.

I'll always be connected to him even if it's in my minds eye.

So, why not put your critical intellectual part away and explore your intuitive side. What have you got to lose? You have a strong connection with your deceased husband so why not explore this further?

For example, quite a number of people visit the Monroe Institute with the specific desire to contact deceased loved ones. They want to know and learn the techniques required to achieve this. They wish to create and then be in control of their OOBES.

Already, you have experienced lucid dreams. Why not attempt the next step? Perhaps, your husband is even gently pushing you towards that next adventure?