Whew! I thought I was the only one going through this! I was beginning to think it was MY age (47) or I was depressed? I'm having difficulty concentrating on the written word. Not only has my participation on Volconvo slowed considerably, I don't feel like interacting socially with friends. I have no motivation, my sleep patterns are all over the place, I've even lost track of days. It's become so bad over the past two weeks, I felt the need to tell someone. (they probably think I'm nuts
, really I'm not!)
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I wouldn't pretend to understand these mysteries, but we all doubtless have numerous cyclical phenomena going all the time, and these wave patterns are probably jumbled part of the time and in phase at other times. And no doubt there's a shitload of other influences at work as well.
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Nono makes a good point. I'm thinking (for me) it's just the time of year? My husband's birthday would have been the 5th. His illness stretched out from the 10th of January, to his death the 23rd, his burial wasn't until February. I handled the 4 year anniversary a lot better than years past since hitting the acceptance stage. My biggest concern was for my three kids. They seem to be doing well, in fact, my 21 year old finding direction in his life has really taken the edge off my worries. The only thing really stressing me out is my dog. He's 15, almost blind, has back problems. I spend a lot of time cleaning up accidents. He's part of the reason for my lack of sleep, but I can't bring myself to put him down because he's not sick, just old.
As far as being 19, I smoked quite a bit when I was your age. I don't recall being unmotivated. I seemed to always be doing something or going someplace. I've decided to start a project around the house to maybe kick start me back to my old self? That always seems to help. I can't wait for warmer weather so I can get back to working in my yard. Probably more information than you need but I just wanted to let you know, you are not alone.
