[Charlatan]

Saint John was one of the witnesses that saw Jesus crucified along with Peter and James. He often refers to himself as 'the disciple the Jesus loved', and I find this disgusting, as in the other scriptures we are told that Jesus loves us all equally, so to refer to yourself as the disciple that Jesus loved would be like casting a screen over yourself to either avoid identification for personal reasons like humility, which could be a good thing, or it could be for not wantint to be convicted by the authorities, right? Again denying Jesus! Maybe it was a way of trumpeting your his own self worth, a sign of pride in his day to day living, and that this pride could creep into his gospel is also disgusting. If Jesus said to him one night that He loved him, must he repeat it every time he feels it necessary?

Surely the other apostles got the same treatment, so to say that you are more loved may be a way of saying that your gospel is more in tune with the Holy Spirit than the others and therefore more important, and therefore you deserve more praise, and more authority over the wishes of the deceased Christ? Was it a Claim to power? Could we then say that Saint John was like a cat, who would stick around referring to himslef as the one that was loved and when times got tough he was a labeless supporter? No that would be misleading, I am sure all the disciples were good men. Either way you can see that he had a problem coming to terms that he was equal with other men, whatever he may have done, and that is a sin and character flaw.